Menty B
Heyy yall!! Thanks for being here with me! Last month I left you all on a bit of a cliffhanger. Many of you have reached out wondering what happened and how I’m feeling now. Thanks, I appreciate all of the well wishes and hope you all are doing well too! So let’s just get right to it. Last fall seasonal sadness hit me especially hard. On top of it, I was dealing with a really tough work/life situation because of course menty b’s never happen at a good time. I wasn’t taking care of myself physically and I was off my meds. I kept telling myself that I just had to keep it together til the new year and I’d go back on meds and everything would magically be perfect. However, I didn’t last. I woke up one day completely unable to function. I attempted to sign myself into an outpatient day treatment program but upon arrival, I was so hysterical that I was unable to communicate my needs. This led to me being put on a brief hold. There were tears, drama, and typical psych ward hysterics, but I won’t bore you with the details. I will say, that I took the best nap ever and woke up with a plan to succeed. I am back on my meds and am currently happy, healthy, and healing.
Right after this brief hospital visit, I wrote thee saddest poem I have ever written. That’s really saying something! I know this to be true because when I shared it with my proofreader, he actually reached out for a wellness check and he’s read some really dark things from me.
I am sharing this with you because here we are six months later and I am quite literally the happiest I’ve been in well over five years. I am driven. I am loved. I am hopeful. There are things I want to achieve and I feel fully capable of reaching every single one of the goals I’ve set for myself. I want all of you to know that seasons change. If this one isn’t yours, hang in there, it’ll be summer before you know it!
Creatively yours,
Bee
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